I have started on a 10 week journey to eat healthy, work out moderately and lose the muffin top so I fit back into my favorite jeans. I will share how I started, what motivated me to make a change, what I did, what I am learning, my challenges and how I organized it all.
Are you feeling similar? On a similar journey? Have advice? Please leave a comment and join me on this journey.
It has been going on for a long time. It occupies a lot of my thoughts. This is how I feel. Don’t judge…
I don’t want to bend over to pick something up because my pants slide down just enough so that my muffin tops bulge over and when I stand back up I have to pull my pants over them…again!
I’m in a bad habit of getting up and drinking coffee with the “bad” creamer (my favorite is the International Delight Caramel Macchiato). It curbs my appetite so I forget I haven’t eaten breakfast. Then I start to feel yucky. The yuckiness is a little headache but not really, probably some hunger, the affects of a sugar spike, negative feelings (why don’t I just like water? What! I forgot to eat again!) Pretty much all around not good. I hate that I drink the sugar and partially hydrogenated vegetable oil but it is so fun right out of bed…the warmth, the creamy sweetness!
When I sit down and lean forward it feels like my stomach roll, which I have already tucked in my pants, and above it, is pressing up into my rib cage…so uncomfortable!
I love sweats.
I don’t want to see the back of my thighs in a mirror and when I do I just stare at them and think those couldn’t be my legs!
When I put on my make up I get glimpses of my triceps waving to me! It is too early in the morning for that. I am hardly moving so how can they be waving so much??
I eat whatever is in my sight. If the kids don’t eat their pizza crust I eat it…all! If I go to the store I buy a snack (Raisinets, Milky Way, a coffee drink, etc). We buy candy and junk food every time the kids have friends over or we watch a movie. Of course, I buy a box for myself (Good & Plenty’s or Gobstoppers are two of my top choices.)
I have become lazy with dinner – not planning or just throwing stuff in a casserole dish with a can of creamed soup or buying frozen, easy foods that I know are unhealthy.
I look at people that are in shape that wear shorts and look good in them and wish I was more disciplined, more active, had more desire to work out and eat right. Wish, wish, wish!
I think about candy and junk food a lot. 🙂
I talk with friends about how I need to get in shape, stop eating so much, be healthier. Whine, whine, whine.
I am not fitting into clothes that I have worn for years…my favorite jeans and almost all my shorts and capris that I have are tight or don’t fit at all.
I am SICK of wishing and whining and being uncomfortable and looking at my 11 year old daughter’s incredible shoulder muscles and wanting mine to look like that! Is that normal when you have a daughter to wish you had her body!?
I am sick of my thoughts being consumed by this uncomfortableness (I am making that word up) and yet, I never do anything about it! It feels out of control.
Until this month…
I stopped wishing and stopped whining.
To be continued…in Part 2.